When Theresa and I were making plans to travel to Kalamazoo, we also made another plan. We decided that we would smoke.
After driving 40 miles, we make a pit stop and purchased our supplies. Theresa immediately lit up and wondered why I didn’t. I really wanted to “enjoy” my first puff in over six months with a martini in hand but decided to join her, in the naughty activity, with only a Diet Dr Pepper. After a few puffs, Theresa said, “This doesn’t taste very good, does it?” “It tastes awful!” said I. We persevered but the activity didn’t get any better.
In a cut-to-the-chase, this is what happened………after not enjoying four cigarettes and returning to our $50.00 Fairfield Inn room and feeling the effects of three extra dry martinis, I looked at the pack of Virginia Slim Menthol Luxury Lights (120 mm) and realized that I had zero desire to indulge. I said, “I’m not doing this anymore!” I took the remaining 14-15 cigarettes, broke them in two and flushed everything down the toilet.
When I quit smoking in October, there was a sense of losing and missing a friend. I had frequent dreams in which I smoked……….and always felt guilty upon awaking. I started my trip to Kalamazoo with happy anticipation of our smoking pleasure. And, that’s why I’m not sorry. I now realize that those awful cigarettes were not friends that offered comfort and pleasure; they stink and taste terrible. I have no regrets and no longings. I am truly a non-smoker…..now.
Congratulations Aunt! I've been told that successfully quitting smoking is akin to drinking 2 gallons of water and not going to the bathroom.
Wow! this is wonderful news.
Posted by: Rita on April 19, 2006 12:59 PMI,too, enjoyed many a dream in which I got to smoke without guilt or worry about my health. I believe it is part of the withdrawal. Stay strong!
Posted by: blue-eyed blonde on May 1, 2006 12:49 PM